AHMED

AHMED
I became one(same) with nothing, for reality has left me. I am sure this is the immediate euphoria to death, my death just 2mins away from my life. Now more than ever seems it rich to die, for I have let go of my self and of everything. My mind, heart and soul in a trinitarian agreement ready to leave my body to face that pain that ends it all . Drowning in the river of nothingness, near the island of hope, reality stretched out its hands to me, And I heard a woman's voice "thank you Jesus". And I opened those eyes that has been blinded by fear, We didn't die, fortunately for us our driver was experienced. It was like the first breath you take when you have being drowning under water. Certain events makes one to appreciate life more, accepting that death is familiar and yet anonymous.. MEMENTO MORI!!.
I knew the lesson of the day has not ended when passengers where busy laying curses on the truck driver that almost crushed us and he(the truck driver), in order not to be intimidated reciprocated and drove away. Our driver seemed lost, he was as sober as a judge. He increased the volume of his radio set to distract him from the noise produced by his passengers. He was musing to Enya's Orinoco flow, like a man that his understanding was not limited by language or anything at all. He was interrupted when a passenger harshly commented that the song was meant for the grave yard. He gave a smile that no one understood and replied. " How easily we run to sentiments than to knowledge "( in our native language). The vehicle was now silent, safe from the sound of the roaring tyres and the sound flutes from the song playing, it was as though everyone was now musing to the song as a way to understand the bomb the sober driver dropped. With the smile on the driver's face , I was sure we were in for a driving school. The driver continued " we were so fast to react to a man that almost cost us our lives, forgetting THE MAN that saved us for his love" . At once the driver was not alone in his sober mood, that truth so true brought us all to that mood. AMOR DEI!!!
The driver was dropping random questions that were obviously rhetoric, questions like...why love?, How love?....what reason is behind true love?. The lady sitting beside him replied, she made it known that she is married and her husband loves her because of her personality and the driver smiled and asked" what if you stop having the personality your husband loves?"....the vehicle went back to its silent mood. Another woman said she is loved because of her beauty. And the driver asked "what if we had that accident and you lost ur beauty?". Silence again. A plumpy man behind said that he has much and he gives much to people, so that's why he is loved. And the driver smiled and asked, " so, you are sure that you would always have and you would always give?". The man made further arguments but he was replied by a silent vehicle. I was ready to give the answer that I was sure was the correct one, cause I have argued on this issue before and I won the argument because I gave the assertion that love should be with out reason(s), because if you give it one, when the reason fades the love fades too. I told that to the driver, I felt smart saying that cause all eyes was now on me. Like the plumpy man I was replied by a silent vehicle but unlike his, my reply came with smiles because I tickled there fancies. After a 2 minutes drive the driver smiled, that smile had "nice try boy" written all over it and he asked , "How long does an establishment with out purpose last? Can a building have no foundation? Can anything be based on nothing?". Right now I am vexed, for me it was obvious that our driver has gone nots. WHAT ELSE CAN IT BE???.
"What's ur name boy?". He asked me, I answered and he continued. "Ahmed you are really intelligent, I understand why you chose nothing as the base(s) of love. For nothing is the only thing man is sure to be eternal, as love is supposed to be eternal." He paused smiled and continued. "The search for the base or reason for love is so easy and common, this search can be exemplified well, when a parent keeps a ball infront of a child and dares the child to search for that ball, but yet you leave your target in search of things uncommon" he smiled again ( I think he is addicted to smiling). And he continued " wouldn't you agree that love is based on being (existence)?, you should be loved because YOU ARE and you should love because THEY ARE?, we would continue hurting ourselves if we continue loving for reasons that are not eternal and universally common like existence, don't you feel a special aura when a stranger helps you so well with no expectancies. That feeling is based on the assumed fact that you are human and nothing else. You feel special because you were treated special not because of anything but because YOU ARE." He smiled again " it is supposed that, if you say you love someone, then death is the only thing that can interrupt that. Even if they turn to a life of crime , even if they loose a leg, even if they loose sanity, even if they do the worst of it all, you would still love them , for they are still human and they exist and that I think should be the base of true love, so love should be as common as existence. Common things are often of low value. But love and being are the source of value of everything that THERE IS" I wanted him to continue but he refused, he said he never talks when j Cole's album comes on, he just listens. Born sinner by j Cole was on then.
30minutes ago I almost died, now I have been schooled by a driver that I am unsure of his academic qualification, but he gave a lecture no lecture hall can contain. Essense is quite underated in our present world. We are ignorant of the fact that our existential problems are rooted on our lack of understanding of the essense(of everything). I have loved for the wrongest reasons , no wonder it hardly lasts. I have heard a lot of songs that forsake love, I too would forsake what those singers perceive as love. The kind of love the driver preaches is very hard if possible, but it goes a long way to bring man closer to the perfect devinity of his maker. Humanity is love, God is love and eternity is their mutuality .

Cyto
DO EVERYTHING FOR THE LOVE OF HUMANITY (message from Ahmed)